i'm all for self discovery, finding yourself and creating yourself. shits i dont know about myself or never really bothered looking further in. always finding it fun to explore myself. LOL! mmmm.....
so, as of late i found something that can be quite disturbing. well, to me at least. i dont know if it's a thing but.. i realize that some people would ONLY LOOK FOR ME when they are experiencing negative emotions.
- resentment... etc. (you get the picture)
as much as i think it's nice that people come to me when they are feeling down, sometimes i sorta really feel like they just wanna dump their negativity on me. contrary to popular beliefs, sure i'm emotionally strong but since young, i'm hella affected by people around me.
i used to care too much that every problem a friend had became my problem. then i realized, "damn! i gotta stop listening to these people! they're killing me too! emotionally draining me inside!"
as it seems, i'm back to square one! i'm fine with close friends doing it but can it NOT BE EVERY TIME? is that even possible? i almost feel as if THESE people would ONLY LOOK FOR ME when SHIT HITS THE FAN AND REMEMBER ME NOT when life is good to them?
woooooo, i guess i now know how God feels like, huh? in some cases where.. life is treating you well, you tend to forgot about God but when life gets a little bit messy.... you turn to God in times of need? #justsayin'
i'm just crazy amazed at to the amount of complains and laments that i am put through almost on a daily basis when you do not even try to compensate em' negativity with anything positively fun to hear about. always with the NO HOPE/ GONNA DIE/ HATE LIFE talk. right.. say it often enough and it may just become the truth! #justsayin'
maybe the problem is within me.
someone once said that i'm just 'EMOTIONALLY ACCESSIBLE'.......
if that is the case, i really still don't wanna hear about your problems every day. especially where i see no end to hearing about the same issue, day in and day out. kinda redundant to be talking about the same issue every time, ain't it? a big waste of GOOD TIME which you could possibly use to BE HAPPY!
i have my own set of problems too, ya know. but i ain't burying it into your face every time! shitz, i even turn my problems into a joke most of the time and use it to entertain whoever that has to put up with my mess! #justsayin'
now, the next time you say "HI".....
please make sure it does not come with a whiny complaint!
my emotional being appreciates it greatly!