Secrets Between Friends

I used to think that knowing a person inside out is important but I have come to realize that sometimes people just don't want you to know certain things in their life. Everyone is entitled to their own secrets. There are reasons why some people keep secrets even from their best friends. I do it too. Reason being? They wouldn't like to hear it and they would not even approve of it. And because I know their stand of certain things, it is just best to keep some things away.

If a friend is keeping a secret from you, don't get all annoyed by the fact that he or she is hiding it from you. There are some very good reasons from it and for all you know they are just protecting you from the very abnormal things in their life. It is especially when you are too quick to judge. When you are too quick to judge, it is just why your own friends would hide some things about their life from you.

Secrets are meant to be secrets. They are secrets for the very fact that it is not for you to know. So don't be a pokey nose and go around poking into your friends' business.

The less you know, the best it is for you.
Trust me.

Planning for Next Year

LoL! Just got back from Australia exactly one month ago and here we are again planning for July next year. Maybe another trip to Aussie Land! Awww!! I so want to go back there. LoL! HAha! The place is so for me, man! LoL! Singapore is the next in line though. =) Hehe!

I don't have much say in the planning though. As long as boss say, "ok". Then ok! we go! LoL! I have 2 options or maybe 3 options on how to get back to Melbourne. The first two option is super tough. But the 3rd option, pretty easy. LoL!

Melbourne, the city I love with four seasons and foxtel TV!! LoL!
I should concentrate here first. LoL!
But if I do get out of here, woohoo! Bye bye, Msia! LoL!

Worst Week - Best Week

So whatever happened last week? It was the worst week I've ever had in which my phone got stolen. But the week ended being one of the craziest best week too. Crazy! LoL! No, I have not gotten myself a new phone yet. I had no time! LoL!

Not complaining yet. =P I'm still using my Nokia 7210. It does not really hurt. LoL! My schedule for the end of the week was so full. Mostly with work, friends and my godbros being back here. Work took up a lot of my time and energy though. =P But its nice to watch those kids perform. All so cute! Somehow I look forward to my weekends seeing them.

Managed to catch up with friends I have not seen in a few months and also met up with my godbros. All 3 of them back here. Its funny how my mum does not scream when I'm out with them. LoL! But they do watch out for me whenever I'm out with them. But I ended up sleeping only at 4am and had to wake up by 6.20am to get to work on Sunday. LoL!

I even forgot to take Vitamin B or C to help give me energy. Just rushed to work and help all the kids to doll up for their performance. By 20 minutes into it, I was already charged with energy. Super nervous for em. After work, rushed to eat and go for Japanese Class. And then? Went to church. It was the longest Sunday I ever had.

Only managed to go to sleep at 10pm. Total sleep hours? 18 hours. Now feeling too drowsy to do anything. Have to keep away from lying down. Gotta stop sleeping. Conclusion?

Everytime something bad happens?
Something good comes along. =)

are you on the losing end?

you know... i know... i'd like you to know that i know... i too dislike you

i've never done anything to you nor do i ever say anything remotely bad about you but you hold this dumb grudge on me since? 5 years ago. damn it. i was stupid enough to think, "hey she's ok what.. can talk what.." mana tau you so do not like me. then why do you care to tell me about your problems in such details?? i never bothered bout you but since you wanna talk to me, all i do is listen and give advice. (wasted my energy to give you advice some more!)

but amazingly, i only found out one year later that you were actually annoyed by the fact that my friend and i was approved to become a prefect. i remembered you dissing my friend saying that she was not even a prefect in st3 and that she was not eligible to try for st joseph prefectorial board. so just because you were a prefect in st3 makes you any better?

i must say i was quite stupid enough to fall for your trick when you told me you brought your hp to school while we were doing spot check in your class. i'm just lucky that i never did find your hp. i knew you were always fishy but didn't think you would be so cunning. why? wanna expose me as a corruptive prefect? come on. i may not like prefects in general but i do my job well. bet you didn't like it when they realized i collected the most summon? lol! that was a funny title.

what ever happened to you? you turned into this horrid person filled with anger and is always jealous of almost anyone. you complain so much to all your friends or even people who are not your friends but just acquaintance. the funniest part? you complain about me when i've never done anything to you.

oh why? because i scrutinized your best friend's affair? oh come on. your best friend was having an affair with my best friend. try thinking about my best friend's gf's feelings for awhile. you care for your best friend, yes. and i care for both my best friend and his gf. i grew up with my best friend and to see my best friend cheat on his gf when i've always looked up to him was a much greater disappointment. i was the peacemaker for him and his gf. i kept them together for years and to watch it go down the drain because of some girl.. of course it would piss me off.

enough about her. you go around telling others that i was what? always with guys when i was in form 6? hello.. i grew up with them. of course i'm with them. unlike you, i don't fall for guys as easily as you do. i hang out and enjoy their company. each and everyone of them knows me to be like that. ask them and you'll see they will only say that i'm just playful but i do not flirt with them. because my idea is to make friends. other stuff only comes later if there is anything at all.

one of the pure reasons why i have little girl friends? because of girls like you. girls like you who can be so fake and yet talk about a person behind their back. girls like you who just don't know how to appreciate what you have. you always complain about what you don't have. you always compare yourself to others. you even compare yourself to me. come on? please. you don't have to. there is nothing rewarding in competing with me. because i really don't care. you are of no matter to me.

you got annoyed when i became the swin queen. you expressed yourself so well that night in front of so many people that you were not happy. to be honest, it was of no matter to me. if you had wanted it, i would have given it to you. it is just a set of pearl jewelleries. its just some popularity contest. it is amazing that you even smiled at me at the entrance and bothered to make small talk. is it that easy for you to fake a smile? how sad that must be.

all i know now is that you are trying to limit my potential and i don't mind. just remember you will get it back one day. because almost everyone and anyone who has done wrong to me always gets it back. tested and proven since 2 years ago. i do not even have to do anything to you and indirectly you will get your own just rewards.

someone recently said..

him:	hey, i just saw ---! what happened to her? she's so fat now.
me:	its not fat. its just her muscles gone flabby.
him:	then why the hell is she being such a bitch? people already hate fat people. she should be nicer to people.
me:	haiyo. that's quite shallow.
him:	true what. she's suppose to be nicer to compensate for her lack of beauty. so that people will at least like her for her personality. she's not even giving people a chance to like her.
me:	er.. maybe she just lacking in both. sides she's very comfortable with her circle of people. so only her circle of people will like her lo.

you always say you wanna go on a diet. you even criticize your own friends that they should go on a diet because they are fat in front of me. who are you to put them down like that? i think you gotta fix your personality first. it is much easier than the diet part. i'm fine with you going around talking bout me. but trust me, when they come back to tell me. i pity you more than i pity myself. because i don't go around talking about you because you do that yourself. your actions tells people so much about your personality that i don't even have to it for you.

please just study well, don't fail anything, graduate and leave. i wish you all the best. because the faster you graduate, at least i can enjoy my final semester without seeing you. you think you are doing a grand favour for others by talking bout me behind my back but you are doing me that grand favour in choosing who are my real friends. because when they come back to tell me. who is on the losing end?

NB: This is not to publicly scrutinize you but my indirect way to let you know. I know that I am not being nice letting this out to the world but you are not being any nicer to me at all. I never leave any names also. But you would know it yourself. It is detailed enough for you to realize it is you. Just ponder on it. I would tell it to your face but if I actually do, I don't think you can handle it. Nor would I handle myself from controlling the volume of my voice. Indirectly letting you see from my point of view.

I Lost My Phone

I lost my phone.. er... not a nice feeling. I miss my phone now. Although it is just a couple of hours. Some friends tried consoling me with, "Its ok. Old phone no go. New phone no come." Which is quite true. But I have like over 800 numbers in there. I only copied the numbers once. But that was 3 years ago. I haven't updated in a long time. So now that I've lost it. Its all gone.

So anyone with my number, I might start telling you to miss call me to let me know what is your number. The Series Of Bad Days should come to the end. Bad things only happens consecutively 3 times. LoL!

Again, I amaze myself. I'm not depressed. Adrian! Look! Me no depress. I'm handling so many upsetting things properly. I think I'll start forgetting by next week anyway. I forget a lot of upsetting things easily lately. People tend to have to remind me. I think it is due to my personal practice. Whenever I'm upset, go to sleep. Wake up, it does not hurt much anymore. So I spend less time being upset. LoL!

So, bye bye phone. I'm sorry you are not with me anymore. I hope the person who took you will be piss when he or she finds out my phone can't used anymore because Philips is not sold in Kuching or Malaysia for that matter. He or she can't even charge the phone anymore. The charger is not sold here. Nor any accessories.

The best part of having a phone that is so different from everyone. Uniquely mine. You served me well. Although you were a one-task phone, I have always loved you the way you are. I love the Tetris game I play every night to sleep. It is like my bedtime storybook. Can't believe last night was the last night of me playing with Tetris.

I'm sorry for the countless times I dropped you on the floor. I didn't mean to. I'm too clumsy. Now I have to explain to my uncle how I lost you to some idiot selfish person. He'd be ok with it but yea, I dislike losing the things people give to me. It is not so much as the thing itself but it is quite irreplaceable because of the person who gave it. All gifts given to me, I put a lot of heart to them. LoL!

Anyway, I have now RM2052 worth of calculators with me. Luckily no one stole the RM2052 while I had those cold hard cash in hand. If I lost that, I'm dead meat. That is 18 person's calculator money with me. And I thought calculators won't be heavy. They certainly proved me wrong.

Too long of a day. I can't handle so many things in a day. My day started from 7am - 11.30pm. Ran around like a mad woman. It is amazing that I am still here to blog. Anyway, I have go now. Long day again tomorrow. Gotta recharge my own body battery!!

Apparently I would take pics with my bro's phone and not mine.
Funny I can't even find a picture of my own phone.
Poor baby. =(

The Start of A Weird Week

Its sorta the first day of the new semester in the new block. Somehow everything was starting out on a sour note. But I managed to just brush off the sour taste in my mouth and got back to being happy cheerful again. Amazed myself too. LoL!

Then something almost kicked me down again but was saved in 10 minutes. Happy mode again. Then by evening I was ok but I made someone unhappy. I felt bad. Sad again.. But by 9pm, a friend called up and said he has a treat for me. Something every girl will like. LoL!

Though there is a risk in it! He said that its his present to me for always being there for him. Helping him shop for his formal clothes a.k.a. his image consultant, listen and advice him on girl problems. I told him to give it to some other girl since I may not be a good candidate and he said he rather give it to a good friend. =) Awwww....

Its nice to have friends who appreciate you and surprise you for being a good friend. =) I am so glad to be like this now. Logical, straightforward and no pretense! Refreshing! =P

Swinburne Melbourne

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My bro insisted on taking us to Swinburne Hawthorn. So we bought the 2 hour train ticket to Hawthorn. It really cost much more cheaper than getting the full fare with Zone 1 and Zone 2 combined.

Swinburne Melbourne does not seem to have such a big ground as compared to Swinburne Sarawak but it has a very homey feel to it. The buildings around. And they don't have stairs (except emergency exit), they use escalators!! Our Swinburne Sarawak? Stairs...!! All the way up to the 9th floor.

Hawthorn Campus





Look at the escalators!!

When we were there, they were tearing down a building. I guess Swinburne Melbourne is also busy rebuilding stuff. We took a quick tour. My brother wanted to show my mum his faculty. Super colourful faculty. All the yellow, red and orange.

you'll never miss the numbers again!

funny stools for you to sit

look like the entrance to movie theatres!

My brother says there is no such thing called a canteen in the campus. There is only a BAR. LoL! To get food you gotta walk out of the campus. Bar??? In the university?? Something Malaysian will never accept. Having alcohol on the campus ground.

food & drinks machines~! just the thing for me! LoL!


greens

busy construction works

They have a huge ass library too! Like a whole building dedicated to the library itself! 4 floors! You check out your own books. There is no need to go to the librarian and stamp the books. And their book shelves??? LoL! You'd be amaze how the save space!! LoL! Just be wary that no one will try to squash you in the between the shelves!

Library.. so colourful





big empty space.


so many computers. no problem wanting to use one.


funny shelves where you can steer which shelf you need.





normal shelves do exist too!


see through glass for discussion room. anyone and everyone can see anything.


you check out your own books, yourself!
I saw one of these things in West Msia once.


silent floor.. that says a lot


individual study area


apparently only on this level... not ALL levels


super clean toilet! and its brightly lit!


clean!!



please do as the brand of the hand dryer says, "applause".
seriously your hands dry faster. LoL!


They only have plugs like these in Aussie Land.

We only managed to see the Business and Arts faculty from outside since there was some work being done there as we couldn't enter the building. =( So I didn't get to see how nice the faculty is compared to Kuching's campus.

toothache anybody?

The best place for pizza! Pizza Works! Its better than Pizza Hut anytime! Trust me! And super value for money. They have this buy 2 large pizzas for $15.90 limited to only take away. This is due to the small interior which does not allow the shop to accommodate a lot of people. If you have more than 3 or 4 person, share the pizzas and you'll still have left overs!!

one man show. the only one working that day.


Meat Lover


Beef Breaky


Promoting... Pizza Works

Bye Bye

Vivian and I heard this song playing last night during supper.
A good song for a friend who is going through a rough time.
If you are reading this, do listen to this song.




Title: Bye bye
Artist: Mariah Carey

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say "Bye" (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say "Bye"

As a child there were them times
I didn't get it but you kept me in line
I didn't know why you didn't show up sometimes
It's something more than saying "I missed you"
But when we talked too
All them grown folk things
Separation brings
You never let me know it
You never let it show because
You loved me and obviously
There's so much more left to say
If you were with me today face to face

[Chorus:]

I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
"I wish I could talk to you for awhile"
"I wish I could find a way not to cry"
As time goes by
And soon as you reach a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And I'm right here next to you
It feels like you gone too soon
The hardest thing to do is say "Bye bye"

And you never got the chance to see how good I've done
And you never got to see me back at number one
I wish that you were here to celebrate together
I wish that we could spend the holidays together

I remember when you used to tuck me in at night
With the Teddy Bear you gave me that I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
That you can make it through whatever
It's so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever

[Chorus]

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say "Bye" (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say "Bye"

[Chorus]

So Much Love Around Pt. 3

At the end of my birthday (super one month ago) we ended the night with a cake which my bro and Amelia went to buy for me. No wonder he left my mum and I to walk by ourselves back. He bought yummy mixed fruit cheese cake! My favourite cake! So everyone gathered in the kitchen to sing me the birthday song and weee! Makan time!

why both of my mums looking at me cut the cake?


maybe they don't trust me with the knife? =P hehe!




fruits!!


can you see the fruits on the top of the cake??


hehe!


this was for dessert too! kiwi with condensed milk! SWEET!


Cute doggies! Princess, Rusty and Blackie!
The human is Ks. LoL!

Short one for today! =)

That Word

Ever since some very dumb blonde girl learned that word and overused it for very wrong reasons, I am now allergic to that word. I don't mind if some dumb blonde use it on me cause she has nothing better to say anyway. She has nothing on me but I have a million things on her which due to the fact that I am able to deduce more and observed her thoroughly before making assumptions.

The point of this post is.. I don't like to even hear that word anymore, I think cause she spoiled it for me. I am allergic to almost everything that is spoiled by her. Again I wanna point out, I don't easily dislike a person but when I do... it really does mean there is something really wrong with that person. Often times, I prove to be right.

I'm not saying there is nothing wrong with me though. I am not perfect too but I try to always reason things out reasonably and logically. If I can't reason them out logically? That means it is not my fault.

It is the same as I never judge a person or criticize a person by how they look. Because to me, how a person looks does not really define what the person is really like on the inside. But I will always judge and criticize a person based on their attitude and character because why? They can choose not to be horrible. It is a choice. They can change if their are being horrible but if they choose not to? It only means they are damn fine with being horrible.

So why must anyone be nice to a person who is horrible on the inside? It is only karma. Anyone who knows me well, knows that I am blunt and straightforward. When I say something, I may not mean to hurt anyone's feelings but often is only to express discontent and my own hurt feelings? So is that wrong?

So Much Love Around Pt. 2

After lunch at Rose Garden BBQ Shop, we set out to find Victoria Parade. And yes, we got lost in Melbourne on my birthday in Winter! LoL! And I got a call from Kuching, someone singing the ending part of the Happy Birthday song. I was complaining that we were lost in Melbourne somewhere near Victoria Market.

We kept asking everyone. Some even said, they are not sure where Victoria Parade was. LoL! The worst part is Victoria Parade was not on the Melbourne map! Rar!! Some few said, "Walk straight up this road, you should get to Vic Parade." We walked so many kilometres that day.

We finally found Victoria Parade. We had to walk pass to the end of Vic St. then see Exhibition St. and once you see Carlton Gardens, you are dang on the right track. Tourism Malaysia is on Exhibition St.. We went into the Tourism Malaysia for a look-see. Surprise suprise, it was an angmoh who served us. They should at least have a Malaysian in the office. Weird.. =P

On the right track, Victoria Parade


Big empty land with lots of greens





Nice right? Great place for the Indian sing song dance movies.


Finally found the place!! Australian Catholic University.
If I was darn crazy about music I could have gone here to study.
No wonder my godbro kept telling me to go Melbourne.

Christ campus.

Modern stairs...

After we found the place and picked up the tickets, we started heading back to the city centre. My brother left us to find Amelia at Melbourne Central. So mum and I had to walk back to Elgin St. ourselves. Not a problem, I remember buildings well. LoL!

Whenever we need to get back to Elgin St. we have to walk pass Lygon St.. Its a street where all the restaurants are. Ranging from French, Italian, Indian, Lebanese, Malaysian and even Greeks. The one place my brother recommend was Il Dolce Freddo. Famous gelato place in Melbourne.

Compared to The Scoops? Il Dolce Freddo serves better gelato!! In all kind of flavours too! We just had to get the Durian flavoured gelato. Trust me! It tasted like Durian alright. LoL! It is like the one flavour you must try if you are a Malaysian. LoL! You just don't know what you're missing.

After having the gelato, we continued our journey back to Elgin St.. There is this butcher shop that we always walk pass. We will always look at all the meat and then drool. We always planned to buy some meat back home to cook but we always end up going to Woolsworth (supermarket) to get our meat!

Look out for this sign while walking along Lygon St.


DURIAN flavoured gelato! The best!


Can you guess each of the flavour? *hint see the durian or strawberry?


the one with the japanese cup, green tea flavour! haha!


weird batch no? one looks like mud.


this batch looks weird too


the one shop we had to walk pass everyday.


always wanted to buy something home to cook

Since my brother went with the girls, my mum and I was with my godmum. Apparently we settled for Authentic Thai food for my birthday dinner. Spicy tom yam soup it is! LoL! So we all met up at the restaurant. We had yummy food but I didn't take any pictures. Didn't want to interrupt my birthday dinner. LoL!

Funny lights right??


funny utensils too

That's all for Pt. 2. The rest will have to wait yet again. If not it would kill to load the pictures. And i know someone might start complaining that my page takes damn long time to load like some 'other' blogs. We don't want that, do we?

Faster load time = Happy readers.