I realized something about myself. I've learnt to not expect anything from anyone. I don't mean material sense though. I just mean what I expect out from a person. I guess the reason why sometimes I refrain myself from calling anyone or smsing anyone is the fear that the person may not reply or may not pick up my call? Same reason as to why I never ask a person out. Not even a girl. If I do ask, it is probably something very important.
When I meet a new person or friend, I'm just very casual about it. Sometimes people say I'm just playing hard to get but it is not that. I just don't do much, I guess. If the person wants to talk, I don't mind. Talking is my specialty but other than that I just never expect anything.
Having no expectations at all frees me from disappointments and all the other headaches. Haha~! Maybe funny but sometimes it isn't that funny though. Having no expectations at all gives me nothing be upset at all. Nothing to be disappointed about.
Having no expectations would mean to have NO hope in anything? Some people would put it that way. That I am a realist. I do hope for some things but I just do not put so much hope in it. Maybe fear of that HOPE doesn't come fulfilled?
Its like when you expect some people to have some proper manners, they don't. When you expect some people to be civil to each other and they are not. When you expect something to turn out exactly how you want it to be but it doesn't.... You get? Disappointed...~
To expect or not expect??